TTFN

i guess i deserved it. i put this all on my plate and i understand why you want to break it. its funny how i dont even learn my lesson, yea call me a dumbass or bash on me. i just dont understand.

"God, im calling at to you know because this im at my lowest, once again. im at a pivotal moment in my life where all i see is just downhill. Please pick me up from where i fell. or if its your will, leave me there."

i dont want to leave you, or just forget about you, because i cant. i was lying to you when i spoke those words and im sorry for doing that. i dont even know what to do anymore, but then i think to myself, that this is life. if i ever wanted to achieve something, people told me to go for it. man up and just do it. and i did. but i wanted to achieve so much that i forgot what was i achieving. all i have achieved is that selfishness inside. and that will haunt me for the rest of my life. the only thing i can say is sorry and just leave it at that, because what is there else to say. im that kinda person that doesnt want to hurt anybody, but myself. TYPE B for ya.

love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

all i could think about is your smile and how you laugh everytime you see me. i told you i lied when i said it. i did. but now i cant go through with a final answer. i owe you alot, you taught me alot, and you showed me alot. i need to clean your locker or buy you another bottle of lotion because your hands are always cold. ill take you on a picnic and fill my basket with granola bars. the days i was with you i could spend it over and over again. i know this isnt the end, because i see you everyday, haha. but the relationship that we had before i want to share with everyone. i dont know whats going on in your mind right now, but i want to clear it from everything. i guess all i can is im sorry, bienhae, chesoamida, marishka... smile for me, show me the girl who i fell in love with.

i havent forgotten about you since day 1. everything that i said i want to keep with you. we had some pretty fond memories and this one is sure to be added. you always make me smile yennoe. im gonna leave the itsnickagain for you. keep it, thats some deep shit in there. and i really meant it. i dont want to post that whole post on here but you could see where im going with. i know youve been stressed over me, sorry for that. i mean, how many times have i stressed you out. haha maaaany. your family is nice a family, HAHA. remember my promises and the goals you set for yourself, because i pray you reach them. thanks for everything, you truly are a blessing to me that i cherish. be my favorite LG