CLOSING STATEMENT

six days away from the city, exaaaaactly what i needed son. i hope it doesnt rain or anything, sun sun sun! "run to the sun".. haha. im surprised everything fit in to my suitcase, oh yea, all im bringing is a backpack... HAHA..
im actually glad im leaving, just cause it help open up my mind because what is done open minded, is better then having your mind closed. HAHA, i can think about things, sing at the top of my lungs, relax, and chill with my booooys. ELECTRIC RELAXATION..
i guess you can say this my reply to what you did, thaaaanks.. you were my relaxtion, gave me highs but not the one from drugs haha. i guess you can say im confused, ill tell you straight up.. but bare with me. ive been stressed out lately and you were the one that kept me coool. you never turn red anymore... HAHA, "you're the diamond in my eye", literally

i was looking at you during o my luv:(
good bye,everyone ill miss you!, try not to anything stooooopaaaaad, haha
GOD IS LOVE, PEACE

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall

NEW DAYS

craaaazy weekend, all about family, you, and whats up there.

thursday, went to school, owned my prayer service HAHA.. short day.went home, went to my lolas and slept for half an hour. after went and chilled at daniels, i love korean students, i think im just gonna kick my sister out and get one, YAY!. then went to pauls. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ask everyone else. HAHA first ever first ever!, what a rush of exhilaration and excitement, my heart couldnt stop beating for the whole time. got my brother too pick me up, went home and shannon, ali, jade ran to my house! wtf, i cant even do that. haha, chilled, ate some oranges... and i dropped them off, how nice am i! haha, went to my brothers work, stole some tylenol cause my i had my period then went home. longest day ever, i forgot we had school that day haha.

friday, slept and woke up at 1!, wow. went to church, passion of Christ, the greatest story of all. got home, and cleaned. family came over, i have a japansese cousin! who isnt japanese! HAHA. i have a filipino cousin who grew up in japan and now lives in california! coooool. no meat today, way to much crab in my house. i hate the smell. chillleeeed, and slept in the morning

saturday, easter egg hunt! only in the living room! way to much kinder surprise. my niece and nephew went craaaaazy around my house. played rockband and ate crab and sinigang, yuuum. went to metro after. metro is tooo crowded now. crowded with LGS and LBS, LITERALLY, i think i blended in. the express lane in superstore is kinda cool, you cant even jack! unbelievable, haha. went to my lolas after, crazy dinner again, family was over, watched notorious and twilight. notorious was clearly the better movie... OH YEA, CANUCKS DIVISION LEADERS BABY, got home, saw a new blog! thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks

sunday, mass at sas, Jesus is back, all for love, last minute changes, learning all the music on the spot = success! haha, got a haircut after. HOLY MAN.. all i gotta say. baptism reception @ the hilton... ate too much i bathroomed every ten minutes... aaliayah is the craziest. went to annas after. went to grays, DANGEROUS... took a shower at annas HAHA, then went home.

oh yea, and the late nights....:)

this weekend was exactly what i needed, no more stressin over tests and projects, (KILLED IT IN MY ENG PROJECT, CHEMTEST, SOCTEST,MATHTEST) sorry... but weekend was absolute electric relaxation for my mind. i looooved every minute of it. thank you God for saving me

Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams to
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin

flew to nasa

It's important, we communicate
and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch
I never call you my bitch or even my boo
There's so much in a name and so much more in you
Few understand the union of woman and man
And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land
~
If heaven had a height, you would be that tall
Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all
Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall
For better or worse times, I hope to me you call
So I pray everyday more than anything
friends will stay as we begin to lay
this foundation for a family - love ain't simple
Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually
Granted we known each other for some time
It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine

its old i know, but still recognizable. YO, you're such a biter...
don't worry about me bff, its your sister you should worry about! i'll pray for her. today was chill, i got smoked during that math test, rest of the blocks past by fast. slept a bit through choir, "knock you down" was in my head. no ipods during the choir trip! whaaaat, how am i suppose to not listen to my korean music, wtf.
so i showed my toe to everyone. uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, it looks so stupid, like a retarded toe something, i felt sorry for my toe. fighting toe! omg. GAAAAAAAY, walked to the corner and wasted my money, it's a beginning, to the thousands of dollars i will spend. jk. you will spend. jk.

HELLO

SUNSHINE?

just read everyone elses blogs about Duluth Choir, because i most likely feel the same :)
finally so glad to see the sun, but it was so hot! like was burning up - jonas brothers in school. rolled up my pants and took of my sweater, aiiiigoo. i think im too hot cause i wear too many scarves. this week is gonna be pretty busy, just want to get done with it and quickly.

i seriously dont know why you havent realized yet, unfortunately you havent cause your so stupid. after all the shits hes done, you still. i know im not telling you to hate him forever but like you going at him way too much. whatever, it's your life, i decidedi wont be a part of it anymore..


i'm inspired


i hope you read this.

another realization

i wasted my time with you, fuuuuuuck. whatever

for the first time, i wish i was actually older. i just wanna get out of here or something. i cant yet glimpse of that perfect life that hopefully i will attain.

i want my own room, its so messy in here and i look to my left and i think "oh yea, my brother is here". i just wanna bed that has no underneeth where the monsters hide, i wanna bookcase filled with books i will never read, artwork that summarizes my character, closet full of clothes i wont wear, speaking of clothes. the SNSD shirts will be arriving soon, their debut performance will be soon, probably after easter break when i raise enough money.

back to the old ages of time

lolli lolli lolli oh lollipop
noooooooona.

i cant believe gbn/bof is over. its so sad to see a good drama end so quickly. atleast theres a special! well according to the wordpress hopefully theres a special. i guess lifes been good, schools getting kinda busy, this weeks over now time for the busiest weekend of my life

friday: choir rehersal, tins debut, sleepover
saturday: rehersal 9-12, mjays birthday, english project
sunday: project, choir rehersal (EIGHT HOURS) concert

fuck no times for anything, :(
summers soon... yay
neeeeed a job
canucks are northwest leaders
superbored is just getting better and better, asians fighting!
loving the world
...:)

your turn

BOF/GBN

a happy ending to a stellar performance

saranghaeyo

STAYING HOME

i'm waiting for you.... Geum Jan Di
"a kind of friend that is most beautiful is a friend like a handkerchief, when things are rough your sweat is wiped away, when your sad your tears are wiped away

i'm actually glad i stayed home, the only good thing is i caught up with GBN/BOF. and it was actually the first drama i ever cried in, or thought alot on. shut up. another drama is over, i'm actually so sad because the whole day ive been listening to the new songs, (making me have a bad heart, what should i do), seriously what should i do, that song is killer man. once your hear you crying fo sho man, you dont even have to know the context, you fucken crying fo sho. i'll miss you guys, hopefully the movie wont be too far! aja, aja, hwaiting!

ive been back and forth, but dramas made me realize that i actually do. all the times when they kiss, when they laugh, when they hold hands, when they get mad at each other, the only person i could think of, was you. Geum Jan Di, nane keedaiyo, im waiting for you.

listen to it and pretend like you lost someone special

TECHNO OF THE KOREAN

OMGOODNESS IF YOU DONT WATCH THIS YOURE CRAZY

cope with it

Hi my name is Nick Tan

busy busy busy, you can say. i havent been catching up with everything lately. i look at my room and all i see is papers that have been there for weeks, a blanket that hasnt been folded, and a tv that's collecting dust. there nothing much to say about anything lately. i dont know what to do anymore. it's like everyday theres something i wanna try and avoid but i cant because it made itself to big i guess. for some reason it feels like i am wasting my life. everyday when i go to school, which i spend a good 40 hours a week at, so basically is my life, it feels like i just cant wait till 3 o clock comes so i can leave. but really when i get home, i wanna go back to school. i am not living up to the moment anymore, i pretty much ruined this grade eleven year, its already spring break and feels like i havent accomplished anything. i always think to myself, is my last year gonna go this quick? fuuuuuuck (sorry for the language richmond girls). i dont evne know what i did the first day of grade eleven, oh yea i was late. late on life. i always have those blogs where i say im gonna "Wake up", get a grip, when am i really going to "wake up", i been asleep all this time thats why my hair was so long. haha. i got a haircut, it's a start. i love life too much that i want to drop dead and leave it.

whatever, i'm stuck on reading sonnets that relate to my life

Farewell! thou art too dear for my possessing,
And like enough thou know'st thy estimate:
The charter of thy worth gives thee releasing;
My bonds in thee are all determinate.
For how do I hold thee but by thy granting?
And for that riches where is my deserving?
The cause of this fair gift in me is wanting,
And so my patent back again is swerving.
Thyself thou gavest, thy own worth then not knowing,
Or me, to whom thou gavest it, else mistaking;
So thy great gift, upon misprision growing,
Comes home again, on better judgment making.
Thus have I had thee, as a dream doth flatter,
In sleep a king, but waking no such matter.



someone give me a new layout

SKYPEHEAT

accept the skype invitations, start making phone calls, and install your webcam! skype is the best thing on the planet. i sound liike a spokes person or something, but it seriously is so cool, its the new msn.

i havent blogged in awhile, i have no time. so i quit work, finally. tired of sell service plans and cameras. i am falling behind in school cause of work. choir resumes to its everyday after school practices. i really miss you, i havent talked you in ages, its ok, i'll see you soon. lately ive been watching def jam poetry, which is the craziest poetry shit. i hope in english we can have a session. "religion make division, make muslim hate the christian.." "i guess i knew this girl named nikki, she is a sex fiend..." "i wanna put a 2 karrat diamond ring in your mind and marrying your every throught". HAHA i am in religion class and me and shannon are skyping each other and we are sitting beside each other.

i am still inspired, it's just its been altered differently, instead of it coming to me i have to actually attain it, that is probably the hard part. i wish i was in writing 12 so i can all my thoughts out... but i cant cause yours wont even come out

ACAPELLA

HAHAHA

seeeeep

im in art class just chillin, right now were suppose to making our shirts but uhh im finished and im just wiating for else for the shirts. you should see what figo is doing man, his shirt is about cristano ronaldo, are you serious figo. SO SNSD BUYERS! dont worry, be patient, its coming. aja aja hwaiting!

post coverage of exam life: exams were the worst ive done, but somehow it boosted my overall marks! haha so im actually proud of what i did, but i didnt make that 4.0 wall :( and yes, i have been reading your blogs, i read it everyday stups. i hate how you just assume that i dont or how i 'forgot'. try and figure out why im acting like this. there was no happily ever after to the once upon a time eh.

http://robinkor.blogspot.com/, YOUVE BEEN SPOTTED, haha good job hyung!

LG, LIFE IS GOOD

cant wait

http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/korean_music_to_go_global/
cant wait till it comes to vancouver or somewhere near, ill be there front line screaming for my girls.

SMAXE

'no, it doesnt matter'

so ive finally cracked open the books, blew of the dust, and started reading. WORLD WAR I, how interesting is it, haha, if i was in the war, i woudlve..... raped or gotten raped. i like exams, only if i get good marks, but i decide that. for some reason, i dont know why im blogging i should be studying, i havent been that worried for exams. i havent been stressing out only, maybe a little cause theres political cartoons on the socials exam (WTF!), and like 3 essay for english (WTF!) other than that, everything seems fine, perhaps. i use to many commas, i'm a 'comma splice' kind of guy................................................................................................. OMG, EXAM FEVER

DOWN THE DRAIN

lifes been sloping down from winter break. i lost all thought from school. im slacking off now more than every time i slacked off in my whole life. im doing soo bad in school and this is the time where you pull your self together. i got 63% in math, theres go my A, i got like 72% in my religion test, there goes my A, my french teacher wnats to kill me, there goes my A, i probably just 'the hundreds' bombed my chem test, there goes my A, and homework just passes by my head. my new years resolution is failing. i never have a phone anymore cause my charger broke. i have no ear phones for my ipod. my xbox mic just snapped in half. you are always sad everyday and i think its me, oh great. i just have my computer and my snsd, but judging from wahts happening in my life, those would probably break.

i just wanna break from life. i just wanna walk forever until i collapse. i wanna sleep and never be woken up. i wanna stay in the shower till my body becomes a dried grape.

IM FUCKEN SO EMO. HOLY, GAYNESS. k lets just do this, from now on, ill be my lb self. being lb is more fun than being a grade eleven emo gayhead. come over my hair, tighten my pants, tuck in my shirt, wear black socks, sleep early, eat all thats on my plate, say thank you, suck up, lets do this.

oh yea, next week is exams. open my eyes to reality LB TIME

CRAP

I like to read blogs that are shiit, you're not forgotten, you're just a thought in my mind that when thought about it narrates to me a story that is missed an that is played back over and over again, my mind is set on replay, replay, replay. I like the Beauty and the beast story cause it's similar except your the beast and I'm the princess.

people say im crazy, people say stupid for following a language that has no relation to my life, people say im weird, people say fuck your so gay, and all i have to say is GEE GEE

in the seriousness, my korean life has taken a huge step. school is fucken so tiring, i wake up everyday thinking that its summer, but i look outside and at the clock, and i cry in the shower, HAHA. so my shirts! my snsd shirts are on the rise soon to be finished, hopefully it will reach the whole world and i can promote my shirt and SM entertainment will hire me as their shirt maker then i can make SNSD wear my shirts and then they will hug me, IMAGINATIONS, THEY JUST KILL YOU. the snsd era has begun

i wasnt trying to get back at you just to let you know so dont be emo, be your LG self

DOWNLOAD

iam not single anymore

tight pants and baggy sweaters

09, i cant believe it. times goes by fast, sucks. i'll be righting 2009 on the top of my homework pages from now on :|

so heres my year end blog summary

so 2008, the only thing you gave me was more heart aches and regrets. when i think of 2008 i only think of only one thing, and thats korea. seriously its been a year since i've transformed from a canadian filipino chinese looking boy into a korean, i'm finally glad i look chinese a little casue people mistake me as korean :) so its a good thing. my first sight of this was when i watched one litre of tears in the summer of 07, TWO YEARS AGO, and i thought that jap was the coolest thing ever, cause of that came hana yori and i fell in love with the japanese culture. then i started to watch korean dramas like snow queen, then my life changed. then the music came along.... SNSD, i found my wife, or should i say wives. theres no english song that i rather listen too. SNSD, when i found them was like when the wise men found Jesus, it changed their lives. KOREA, ITS A SIGHT TO SEE

on the other terms i thought 2008 wasted my time, it was a year wasted i guess, i found some positive thoughts but i know the negative ones overweigh by a ton. one positive thought, CUBA08, one negative thought, GIRLS. everyone think of one postive thought and one negative thought of 08, dont be gay. i could give shout outs to everyone like what everyone is doing or say like "thanks for everything, lets make this new year crazy" but it would be cliche. i would go through the list, listing everyone one by one and saying something crazy about them. you know you are, thanks. if you know who you are, then good.
but seriously, i just wanna say this. everyone lets pick up our asses and fucken stop wasting something so precious.... which is time and life, cause just to let you know, they're not eternal and it wont wait up.

everyone has a new year resolution that they think they're gonna do, but they end up just doing the same shit cause no one takes iniative, isnt it true. like figo, im not picking on you, you know i love you, but you say your gonna do your hmk, dont you say that like everytime theres a "change" of things. you know what i mean, i love you jos, just take iniative.

its the same thing for myself, i never took the iniative thats why im stupid. but 2009, till the day i die, i will remember each day as if it were my last (cliche) SERIOUSLY. no regrets, no aches, no fucking up, no assholes, no stupidity, no more "not trying", no more giving up, no more suffering, (im listening to stand up for love), no more hopelessness, and fcuk no more girls, i can wait for the right one. so this is my new year blog, i'll take iniative by waiting for SNSD to come out in about 6 hours, see you in the long run. God is love

GEEGEE