cope with it

Hi my name is Nick Tan

busy busy busy, you can say. i havent been catching up with everything lately. i look at my room and all i see is papers that have been there for weeks, a blanket that hasnt been folded, and a tv that's collecting dust. there nothing much to say about anything lately. i dont know what to do anymore. it's like everyday theres something i wanna try and avoid but i cant because it made itself to big i guess. for some reason it feels like i am wasting my life. everyday when i go to school, which i spend a good 40 hours a week at, so basically is my life, it feels like i just cant wait till 3 o clock comes so i can leave. but really when i get home, i wanna go back to school. i am not living up to the moment anymore, i pretty much ruined this grade eleven year, its already spring break and feels like i havent accomplished anything. i always think to myself, is my last year gonna go this quick? fuuuuuuck (sorry for the language richmond girls). i dont evne know what i did the first day of grade eleven, oh yea i was late. late on life. i always have those blogs where i say im gonna "Wake up", get a grip, when am i really going to "wake up", i been asleep all this time thats why my hair was so long. haha. i got a haircut, it's a start. i love life too much that i want to drop dead and leave it.

whatever, i'm stuck on reading sonnets that relate to my life

Farewell! thou art too dear for my possessing,
And like enough thou know'st thy estimate:
The charter of thy worth gives thee releasing;
My bonds in thee are all determinate.
For how do I hold thee but by thy granting?
And for that riches where is my deserving?
The cause of this fair gift in me is wanting,
And so my patent back again is swerving.
Thyself thou gavest, thy own worth then not knowing,
Or me, to whom thou gavest it, else mistaking;
So thy great gift, upon misprision growing,
Comes home again, on better judgment making.
Thus have I had thee, as a dream doth flatter,
In sleep a king, but waking no such matter.



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