its only been 3 days since my last blog, funny, these 2 blogs totally contradict themselves
seriousness, i've seriously dug a hole so deep that i cant even get out of now. this whole month ive been on an emotional roller coaster ride that now, fell of its track. i want it to come to a stop, but it cant, the force is pushing it too much. i dont know what to do, im not saying that to get out of the situation, im saying that because i seriously dont know what to do. History can be erased and forgotten, i believe thats bullshit. History is imprinted and forever there, always there. too bad though, i cant escape this black hole. i've been inspired, but no one gets inspired by me.
theres always an end, they say. there is none to me, i look at the future and all i see is this mess thats not getting cleaned up. guess i'll stay an LB forever. nothing gets through to people now a days, i say stuff and they turn it around to something so opposite, something thats not even related to what i said. theres no reason for me to be talking if nothing gets through, i hope this blog gets through. i pretty much am glad that i made a blog cause this is the only way that i get through to people. i cant say it straight up anymore, none of that shit, people have to be so secretive now a days, when did shyness become so cool. why are you still reading my blog, nothing i say is true, right
its ok, i'll show happiness, all i gotta think about is my korean loves, sarang-hae, SNSD i miss you. enough of me, its fucken so cold outside. i walk outside with gloves on and its fucken colder without gloves. school is pretty whack, i still havent 'clicked in' to school mode, i still think its summer, oh well. no more long ass weekends. Christmas is coming up soon, nooooice. 2008 finally ended, its seriously been the shortest year of my life, i dont even remember what i did on new years last year. ALRIGHT, lets pull myself together , korea here i come...
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